The sexual and sentimental misery made me depressed, slow, nonchalant and I lost all motivation
When I was a child and early teenager I was lively, curious, always in a good mood because I was not yet interested in girls and the love of my parents was enough for me. But once I became a young adult and sidelined from interactions with women, this lack eats everything else and made me miserable on a daily basis.
One of the rare girls with whom I had a date took me for a pigeon, telling me after a few weeks that she had one of the regular sex plans but that she was not interested in me “you are nice, too good for me… “in short it made me very depressed for a while.
Almost a year ago, a new co-worker arrived. She did not leave me indifferent. The problem is that she has already been in a relationship for many years. This did not prevent us from having a very great bond with both of them to the point of being a little tactile. We have been out with other colleagues several times, but never both. I think it’s an INFJ. I learned from another colleague that her boyfriend cheated on her 2 years ago and that they separated for 9 months before getting back together. Since March they have moved into a small house which they have bought.
I’m starting to turn the page a bit but I still enter the vicious circle of this fucking loneliness. I have tried dating sites but even then I am ignored . I feel like I have a lot to offer but nobody wants it and I don’t understand why. A lot of very limited people manage to be in a relationship and have kids, it shouldn’t be that complicated, fuck . (more…)